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burn out, or fade away?
"everynite the same routine, hopeless love and endless dreams." I am so fucking bored with my life. I mean not like I want to end it or anything, it's just that it's the same thing happening over and over again. I like boy...Boy likes me. Boy doesn't like me anymore.... I forget about boy. Not just with the whole relationship aspect. Going out every weekend "partying". Most of my friends are pretty damn awesome.. Why the fuck else would I hang out with them? But when you hang out with certain people you have to be associated with the arrogant pigs that they're friends with. And that is just no good......
Oh man watch me chug this smirnoff I am so freaking wasted like oh my god, I am so drunk. Hehehe Like I am so wasted what do I do?? Oh I think i'll make out with that guy over there.. Liiiiiike!!
Pass me the Southern Comfort so I can bash that bitches head in with it. I just can't stand bitches like that. The other weekend I went out to this party and there were these 12 year old girls throwing up, and huddled around them were more 12 year olds screaming.."like oh my god someone help her."
Well maybe in reality they were freshmen but honestly that's damn near being 12...in my book anyways. Listen girlies stay home next weekend. Have a sleepover, play with your make-up and barbies. You may think that you are a big bad freshmen at a party but we really just laugh at you. Sorry...wait no I'm not...but you don't belong with the big kids my little sweets.. stay home. Spare yourself the embarassment. :)
Anyways back to me. You see I had this dream, one day I would break free of this psycho ward I call Bishop. One day I would make it. One day the highschool jock and the cheerleading captain would be sitting watching the tele with their 10 young kids screaming running around in the backround and all of a sudden who would be on t.v.?? none other but yours truly..ME! Screaming into the camera pluckin my bass guitar. And there they would sit stunned. Jaw to the ground and eyes unable to blink.
Yeah but like I said.. I had a dream. When I started my band I believed we could be something, I thought we could be big. Our plans were to practice our asses off. Go to the same college and keep on playing together, maybe playing small venues around the southland until eventually we would be "discovered". But things got in the way. My devotion to the band never wavered. Not once. I can't say that for my guitarist and "best friend". "best friend" that's a term I won't use anymore. You see dear sweet Elizabeth got herself a boyfriend. And practice seemed to cease. Thus, I declared the band dead. It's not like I didn't try..
"hey beth you want to jam today?" Jolie asks enthusiastically.
"Umm... I have homework to do, oh and yeah umm im supposed to hang out with frank"...... Beth tries to answer like she actually gives a fuck!
So much for friendship you fucking flake. Oh I still practice... alone of course. So when I do make it I am going to laugh in that bitches face. Kurt Cobain once said "it's better to burn out then fade away". I love you Kurt but I disagree. Man as long as I keep on doing what I love (playing music)then I am fucking living my dream.
6:53 p.m. - 2004-11-28
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