brodyblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the song was for you..... I'm not really sure I know what to write about anymore. I've noticed that lately the only thing I write about is ....well the boy*. But hey since that's the only semi-interesting thing happening in my life then what the hell why not? It's MY diary anyways!! Right now I am kinda scared well if that's what you want to call it, I can't really explain the feeling I have right now. It's kind of like anticipation and dread at the same time, but also a feeling of "it's gonna be ok". This guy, I feel like he sees me. I let down my wall so he could get in. I want him to know everything about me....Even the bad things. And I want to know everything about him...even the bad, but I doubt he is capable of doing wrong. Talk about brainsick eh? It's weird that you can know a person for a month and totally be smitten by them. I don't want to be quick to call it love. That would just be psycho. But it's something. And god if he feels the same way then im set for life. Just knowing that he cares for me in more then just a conventional way will set my heart at ease. This guy is the most amazing person I have ever met. Amazing doesn't even sum up how awesome he is... He said I was beautiful. He held me and stroked my hair when I was sad. His smile makes me feel safe. So here I am sitting by the phone....waiting....and waiting. Maybe he'll call, maybe not. But the point is I will wait for you..Remember you asked me who I wrote the song for???It was obviously for you. And I think you knew, maybe you just wanted to hear it from me. And I don't even care if you find this diary, because I want you to know how I feel. He's older by four years, doesn't seem like much but since im 17 and he's 21 I guess it is. And he is going to go back to college at the end of the month. I think the thing I am attracted to the most is...gees this is hard...but its definitely not your looks. Don't get me wrong you are hott, but it would have to be how when you are talking to me it feels like you are telling me a secret. If you don't feel the same way please don't make a big deal and feel bad or anything because I have gained a friend. And that is very important to me. You are smart and beautiful and did I tell you that you're a dork??Yeah im pretty sure I did. My friends try to tell me that it is obvious you like me, but I want to hear it from you. Then I think how can someone like you like someone like me? You are amazing and I don't know what I am..I don't think I am beautiful im definitely not smart...Maybe you see something in me, help me see it too. I wonder when you get back from out of town??? Will you call me?? Please don't tell me that you are gonna call me, and then not call me...please. I can't tell you how amazing you are right now...But im going to try to tell you before you leave. -brodyblue- 6:54 p.m. - 2004-08-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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