brodyblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- dissapointed. I am so dissapointed in myself. Damnit!!! I could just die, and I'm serious too. On sunday night my friend and i went up to this place in mammoth and they were having these motocross races.I meant this guy and i got drunk and we ended up "hooking up" Ugh i hate the term.. NO.NO.NO.We didn't have sex but we did a lot of other stuff.I never let myself go that far.I'm usually the good one.But we ended up in the bathroom of all places. Damnit and he was like 23 too. What the hell is up with this weird attraction towards older men?? Anyways he was very sweet and cute, oh i hate this. I just can't believe i put myself in that position.How stupid am I? I just wanted to hang out with my friend before she went back to college and she talked me into going.I keep on thinking about it, and how irresponsible i was. I mean it's not like i fucked anyone or anything but something really horrible could have happened. I could have lost my virginity in a really meaningless way to someone I didn't care about or even know for more than a fucking day.But I didn't.I guess i should just stop dwelling on it.I hope that was the last time anything like that happens.I am really angry with myself.argh.I'm gonna go cry now. 7:58 p.m. - 2004-06-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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