brodyblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I love ya baby. Well..well..well.fancy seeing you here!diary its been so long!!yeah whatever im a dork i don't care.my computer has been broken, somethin about the virtual memory and bla bla bla.im horrible i don't know anything about computers.TecHNolOGy BaD!! but im gonna try to make this a decent entry,because i don't know when i'll be writing next. Here's the thing i've been thinking about it and none of my friends are virgins.surprise surprise were all almost 18.And once you are out of highschool sex becomes a casual thing. it's like oh go to a club see a guy you like.he takes an interest in you and next thing you know your in bed together... well i don't know if this is really how it is. i have no experience whatsoever. what im trying to say is that once you get older your expected to "put out".guys are gonna expect this from me.ahhhh!!!!what do i do??if anyone knows, fill me in because im lost. how am i supposed to have a chance at being in love? ah hopeless romantic.loser.ah thats what i am a loser virgin girl.whaaaa. oh well,its ok, i know im not the only one out there. but what im saying is that if i don't find the one i'm meant to be with for the rest of my life soon, then i probably never will. when i get older, guys won't expect me to be a virgin anymore so they're gonna like me for the wrong reasons. and there will end my chance at having love. this probably sounds really stupid but there is this song by Weezer and River's is saying that he wants a girl that puts her make-up on the shelf when he leaves. and a girl who only laughs at his joke's. yay.I want to ache for someone. and when he goes on a trip there would be no reason for me to go out.i would just stay there and wait for him. wow.i am a hopeless romantic.and that kinda sounds sad.it is sad. but sometimes these things can't be helped.but you know i've been scorched enough times by boys/men. it would just be so much easier to be a lesbian.hey why not?? hmm.lets see. because i adore boys. well i guess thats the end of my ranting, for now. la la la la*brody goes into song* when i see you lay down under pink lacqered skies baby. i'll give you somethin that will shut your eyes to this mess. well i love ya baby i mean it more than just the whole world. and when i take a picture thats instant. lost tonight.oh baby it burns. i said i remember it so. i saw your eyes go through the tunnel. i remember kneelin down my head flat in the ground. well i love ya baby. i mean it more than just the whole world. i remember the australian sun. i was eight years old. you were marilyn monroe. thats all for now..i probably butchered it.but eh that was for you.;) 4:47 p.m. - 2004-06-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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